(ignore me, i'm writing nonsense.)

somehow i think
you're the reason i feel this way

for a long time
i felt more lonely than ever

seeing your face
seeing your smile

i felt a twisted knot inside

i never really showed
this other side of me

who still remembers

what it feels like to miss you
what you like and don't
the warmth of your hand
the way you teased me
the way you mess up my hair

each time we walk past each other
like strangers
i hold back
my tears

i used to wonder
if we could ever be friends again

i cannot remember the last time i spoke to you
seems like forever
and forever is a long time

i told myself i'm over you
i just kept on pretending
and playing this game

alone

but i suppose i'm tired
just a little too tired now

maybe i'll stop pretending

you still make my heart skip a beat
do you know?

if i had to use one word
to describe how i was feeling

maybe
i'd look into your eyes
as if i had something to say
and then i'd look away again
for nothing comes out
nothing i'd want you to know

if i had to draw one thing
to show you my thoughts
well, they say a picture paints a thousand words

maybe
i'd take a paper and pencil
and then i'd draw
and erase
and draw
and erase
until a hole burns in the paper
where i erased
just a little too hard

(hoping to erase those memories of you)

but i seem to realise
the harder i try to erase
the more it burns
and tears me up inside

i think
it has come to a point
where i can't think

don't want to think
think that i think i'm not thinking

but actually when i think
of thinking that i think i'm not

i am thinking.

okay,
i'm not actually thinking.

The feeling of
The winds brushing past your face
The coldness of
The air and how you wish that
The time would just stand still so
The world would seem to zoom by at
The speed at which seems like
The speed of light and when you come to a stop you take off
The skates as you walk along
The pavement and you realize how you should sometimes slow down and look at
The small little things around you that could put
The smile on your face