if i had to use one word
to describe how i was feeling

maybe
i'd look into your eyes
as if i had something to say
and then i'd look away again
for nothing comes out
nothing i'd want you to know

if i had to draw one thing
to show you my thoughts
well, they say a picture paints a thousand words

maybe
i'd take a paper and pencil
and then i'd draw
and erase
and draw
and erase
until a hole burns in the paper
where i erased
just a little too hard

(hoping to erase those memories of you)

but i seem to realise
the harder i try to erase
the more it burns
and tears me up inside

i think
it has come to a point
where i can't think

don't want to think
think that i think i'm not thinking

but actually when i think
of thinking that i think i'm not

i am thinking.

okay,
i'm not actually thinking.